Well, I wasn’t going to read my Bible today because I was just feeling confused and lost and just not loved honestly, and I’m currently in John, and I was came John 15- and 16 and it was about Jesus telling his disciple about Christlike love and persecution and how they world will hate because of him, but if we keep his commandments and his love for others despite all the trouble and pain it’s causing, it’s going to be turned around to joy, and how pain is temporary ( he gave example of women going into labor - how it’s become joy when the baby here ) and how he loves us and father too, and since we know him and believe he will answer us, and I felt really encouraged and seen But how he lay his life for us and how we should do the same, and I was remembering what I was asking God, how I wanna be light and love for my husband and be encouraging to him and just be different and everything to be good again, and just guide and help honestly, I went over some old Bible study notes about persecution too