I’d like to share a few thoughts. Not sure who’s going to see it but I’ve been very busy, work and mental health. Ever since I was young I always believed in god, but never looked towards him. But as I got older (15-18yrld) I hit bumps in the road and got major depression. I felt heart broken and lost, with major butterflies of pain. I put my heart into a girls hand and it got destroyed. I’ve always had a big heart, I’m full of love, so I get easily hurt. But when I got hurt the most, I got closer to god. I’d pray to him here and there and just chat with him, or even talk about my feelings and tell him I understand what you’re doing is building me blah blah blah etc. no matter what, I’d never blame or get mad at god for how I feel or what’s happened, and I’d never pray and say to help me and get rid of it and ask for stuff, I’d ask god to stay with me, be there as I tread my own path. And as time goes on I can tell, what I’ve been through has progressively changed me for the good. Each bad interaction I get with life molds me, I can only tell with time and effort. I’ve recently been getting much better thanks to him upstairs, with the people who somehow got in my life and put their own mark on me to keep on going. Everything that has happened to me, made me, me. And I’m sure I would’ve gone down a bad path of drug addiction or became an alcoholic. Instead, I let god become my drug. The lord, I’d given what’s left of my heart, molded it back for me. All those times I’ve cried and felt lost, or hurt, every time i thought of disappearing, eventually I’d look towards god and ask for help and forgiveness. I’m not perfect, and I’m still not perfect, nor will I ever be. I know I’m not a great follower of god and pray every night, but im eternally grateful for what he’s done and I’ll progressively work harder to be a better follower. God works in mysterious ways. And who knows, I hope by sharing this little story, helped someone out or maybe opened their mind a little to god. I hope whoever reads this has a beautiful day/night. God bless you, and your family , stay healthy and safe ❤️