My life is overwhelming at the moment, filled with challenges regarding my relationship and my faith in Christ as I navigate an LGBTQ lifestyle. I'm facing toxic dynamics in the relationship, and while he claims he’s seeking God, I can’t shake the feeling that he’s leading me to destruction. I don’t blame him for everything, but I’m a mess and desperately need Jesus to save me because I’m deeply unhappy. The idea of being alone and truly walking in faith is both appealing and frightening. I want to resist worldly temptations because I thought that embracing the world would bring happiness, but there’s always an emptiness that can only be filled by Christ. My faith is dwindling, and I feel like the enemy is gaining ground. I say I want Jesus, but I struggle to truly follow Him. I need help and feel lost, with no one to pray for me or share my beliefs.