Yesterday I got news that one of the projects I’ve been working on. Has started pursuing a new funding source since the one I put them in contact with is not communicating what’s happening and because it’s almost two months. My connection to this lending source said he believes the lender that is reviewing the project is in his words “substantial”. They are doing Due diligence and that is gonna take as long as it needs to take. Now this new lender they are pursuing has already issued a ten sheet on another protect that was turned down. When I got this news I was in the way to the beach for family time with the wife the whole drive there two hours and change I pretty much questioned myself. what am I doing? am I pretending in these meetings? why is this so hard? is God telling me to quit this and do something else? Is this possible? Should I just go to trade school? My mind was messed up I was hurt saddened by this news. I’m still at a lose of what to do I have no idea I prayed so much on the way there and have no answers I just feel so lost yesterday I felt like a failure. Like I’ve been wasting my wife’s time letting her stress over bills and not having money despite having a good job. My wife was doing her best to make me feel better and feel happy but it’s tough I don’t know what to think what to believe how to know what to do do I stop real estate and just work a normal job and be average or do I find a job and continuing chasing the dream that I think about visualize myself being prayed about numerous times thanks God for the connections I have the phone calls video chats I have been on the phone about discussing 5-9 figure deals just this first seven months of the year I’m hurt I’m lost I know God listens and hear my prayers just don’t know if mine are affective or if the silence is him telling me do something else