I KNOW IT’S LONG BUT I WOULD TRULY APPRECIATE IT IF YOU CAN PRAY FOR ME. ON THE FOURTH PARAGRAPH, I’M BEING EXTREMELY VULNERABLE. Things I discuss in each: • Job interview tomorrow • direction in life • Too much schoolwork is taking my time away from the Lord, I do hw from morning to night. • Deleted discord from my phone 2 days ago, my only source of fellowship. I abandon messages and friends without letting them know. It’s a recurrent thing. I impulsively and urgently desire to isolate myself from friends. I don’t know why. There might be jealousy, but not sure. Tomorrow I have an interview for a job at a fast food restaurant. Can you guys pray for me that the Lord give me courage, peace, and to not stutter on my words as well as knowing what to say during the interview? I also need prayer for direction in my life… because this job is something I didn’t expect I would get an interview for. It’s not my career goal or industry, (it is something I find interesting, but not my career goal). I applied not anticipating an interview and here I am… I also need prayer with my schoolwork… homework has stripped away my time for the Lord on top of not feeling motivated to do schoolwork… it feels like a chore and I rather be praising the Lord and committing my time to Him, but since the moment I wake up to the moment I go to sleep, I’m mostly doing homework. I also deleted discord from my phone a day or 2 ago (which happens to be the only source of fellowship I have). That app is where all my Christian friends are, in a Christian server. Outside of that app, I have no fellowship. Recently they told me if I would be willing to step down from being a moderator because of inactivity. I didn’t respond back and haven’t. Why I deleted discord from my phone? Because I think I have a problem with wanting to isolate myself from everyone and go “no contact” with all my friends. I have a tendency to impulsively and urgently desire to distance myself from people and I don’t know why. I struggle with posting something and then regretting posting it and “beat myself up” for doing so. I think I have a problem rooted in the heart and I’m not sure what it is because this is a habit of mine that I do from time to time and I don’t let anyone know (I abandon messages and friends without letting them know, like going missing and no one knows where I am.) I also think there’s something to do with jealousy going on… because the moment someone gets commemorated or acknowledged or someone said something that made people applaud at that person, I look at myself and start feeling bad and cry. Please pray for me and I thank you so much if you have. 🙏🏻