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6 months ago
I ask for help in my walk With God I struggle with relying on him when I have fear and anxiety, and I feel like lately I've just been so distant from him and I want to just get to know him and love him and see him as a friend. But lately, I feel like I've been so distant and I've had no energy and been so tired that I'm not getting closer to him or even praising and worshiping him and I feel like something is stopping me. I'm not sure what and I've confessed sin and I'm not sure what else could be stopping me. Now that I type this the only thing I can think of is, that I did it with someone multiple times and it was wrong but I enjoyed it. The bad thing is he has a girlfriend too. I regret that as much as I miss it and it's wrong to miss it and I regret cheating on people too and I realized there was this older person who I dated kinda me and I talked dirty. Also, I cheat on one of my exes. I just need to repent from all my sins but I'm scared because I've done so much wrong and it feels good to admit it and I need to let the dark come to light and start anew. But I'm so lost and feel hopeless even though I love God and he does so many great things. In addition, I'm a huge hypocrite and hate social media pornography and a boyfriend yet this is what leads me to my lustful desires. I call out people for doing things then I do the same thing. I have drank before and smoked and I feel so hopeless and want to be a good Christian but how can I after everything I've done? I've played vitamins and told half-truths and used to cuss and listen to rap then with the same mouth praise and worship God. I've said oh my gosh but the other word and stuff which is wrong. I've sinned and committed every sin I've had snap knowing I should not and I snuck out to meet a boy and dated many Boys I had suicidal thoughts when I was younger and talked to old strangers. I crave male action for whatever reason and want to do it with the dude who has a girlfriend still and can't get over him. I find myself having sinful dirty thoughts and saying rude things. I've been rude and cheated and lied, hurt people I cared about for my benefit cheated on tests used AI for school work stayed up passed when I was supposed to, and took alcohol. I feel unlovable and like God wants nothing to do with me since I sin every day. I'm not sure how to stop either than posting it publicly like this. I'm getting baptized in a few months but what if I'm unworthy of getting baptized and unworthy of praying and reading God's word? I'm so obsessed with what others think and I'm a huge people pleaser and I can't stop this and I don't know what to do. how can I be a child of God when I do this. how do I move forward with God not alone.
If you've never fasted while reading his Word, I highly recommend it. Just a light fast; postpone one meal. It creates a powerful bond with the Lord that makes you feel his love and comfort. It's quality time with the Lord. Also say the Lord's prayer over and over again.
Pray and get back tobthe Bible and you won't feel distant. Remember God never moves ,We do
"If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."
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Olá querida irmã! Tudo bem? Espero que sim. Bem, nunca se esqueça que o Pai é aquele que apaga nossas transgressões e não lembra mais delas quando nós nos arrependemos e voltamos à Ele. Deus nunca irá te rejeitar e a Palavra de Deus é para todos que querem ter aproximação ao Pai! Você deve seguir o Santo Espírito de Deus que vive em você, porque se você está arrependida e quer parar, já é alguma coisa que veio de Deus, porque você deve ser como Cristo, na qual você já mostrou estar mais próxima dEle, pois você odeia o pecado, mas você deve continuar a pedir perdão do Pai e continuar a lutar contra este pecado, porém lute com a força que o Pai lhe dá, pois Ele sempre nos dá uma saída em meio as tempestades, que no seu caso são as tentações. Lembre-se que você deve se preocupar em namorar alguém quando estiver pronta. O Pai proverá um bom namorado para você, mas você deve procurar por alguém que é próximo de Deus, pois está pessoa também lhe ajudará no teu caminho com o Pai. Nunca se esqueça que Deus irá te perdoar e ainda que nossos pecados sejam como escarlata, Ele tornará branco como a neve, e nunca rejeitará de ouvir suas orações e choros, Ele sempre esteve ao teu lado e sempre tenta te consolar. Você consegue continuar o teu caminho! Sempre peça para Deus dar forças para você lutar contra este pecado. Apoie-se no Pai, pois Ele foi quem aguentou as tentações do diabo no deserto! Nunca se esqueça que o sacrifício de Jesus foi para pagar pelos nossos pecados, Ele veio para nos salvar e não nos condenar.
Hello dear sister! How are you? I hope you are well. Well, never forget that the Father is the one who wipes away our transgressions and no longer remembers them when we repent and return to Him. God will never reject you, and the Word of God is for everyone who wants to draw closer to the Father! You must follow the Holy Spirit of God who lives in you, because if you are repentant and want to stop, it is already something that came from God, because you must be like Christ, in whom you have already shown to be closer to Him, as you hate sin, but you must continue to ask the Father for forgiveness and continue to fight against this sin, but fight with the strength that the Father gives you, for He always gives us a way out in the midst of storms, which in your case are temptations. Remember that you should worry about dating someone when you are ready. The Father will provide a good boyfriend for you, but you should look for someone who is close to God, as this person will also help you on your path with the Father. Never forget that God will forgive you and even though our sins are like scarlet, He will make them white as snow, and He will never reject hearing your prayers and cries, He has always been by your side and always tries to comfort you. You can continue on your path! Always ask God to give you strength to fight against this sin. Lean on the Father, for He was the one who endured the devil's temptations in the desert! Never forget that Jesus' sacrifice was to pay for our sins, He came to save us and not to condemn us.