Dear Lord, it's been a minute... Like, a long way past overdue minute for such a long time!!! I have lost my way in life, Even though my cup feels full and looks full. I just don't know if I'm just in my feelings. I feel like I'm live a lie and to avoid problems, i just keep it to myself and keep moving forward, due too my feeling or values don't hold no place in the situation im in. The sad thing is I have lost myself. By forcing my own self to help build another person, but But losing my way in the process. Because everything I do. I'm always told that nothing I do. Has any value or meaning. And I just make it harder for them. And I'm nothing but just problems and trouble. But I always shown how faithful I am and I will do anything. Is gotten to the point I'm stuck in a position even if I wanted to leave. I have no money. Nothing in my name, not even a job. A secured one because I gave all that up to help build it another person. And I owe them that debt. I just need some type of guidance to find my way to try to end this suffering and find my purpose again