I've being struggling with alot recently pornography, lack of assurance of salvation and the integrity of my faith, intrusive thoughts and finding it hard to know what to pray and read the bible. I love the lord I don't want to do these things, I want to serve him with my whole heart, all I want is to have a relationship with god and I see I do have one, I've been a Christian just over a year and the lord has changed me I want so badly to change and grow but I'm finding it hard to move forward and died myself. Sometimes I feel like a failure of a Christian and due to these thing I often lack peace and assurance sometimes I feel like I'm trusting in my feelings or what I did or didn't do more, I often catch these thoughts know god loves me not based of what I have or haven't done and my feeling don't determine or define my salvation but it can be hard sometimes to shake these thoughts pray for me to trust In the lord alone and ignore my feelings and that I would grow in the faith god bless.