THE LORD HAS BEEN SO GOOD TO ME, I ACTUALLY FEEL LIKE VOMITING, AND CRYING. IT HAS BEEN A TOUGH SEASON OF DRYNESS AND FEELING LOST AND CONFUSED AND WANDERING. BUT NEVER LET GO. REMEMBER THAT GOD HAS THE WORLD IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND. GOD IS WORKING EVEN IF HE NEVER SAYS SO. LIKE IN THE BOOK OF ESTHER, ALL THINGS WENT FOR THE GOOD WITHOUT GOD EVEN BEING MENTIONED. NEVER, EVER, EVER, LOSE YOUR FAITH! WHEN THE MORNING COMES THE JOY IS UNEXPLAINABLE. HOLD FAST TO GOD IN YOUR HEART. TO YOU, NEVER BE FAR FROM GOD IN YOUR HEART. SO STOP WORRYING. HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR YOU. I AM OVERWHELMED BY THE JOY AND GOODNESS OF GOD. YOU NEED TO TRUST IN HIS WORD WHEN HE SAYS HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR YOU, WHEN HE SAYS THAT WE ARE HIS SHEEP AND THAT WE LACK NOT. THAT WHEN HE SAYS THAT HE WHO HOPES IN HIM SHALL GET RENEWED STRENGTH. RIGHT NOW, EVERY PRAISE SONG I LISTEN TO WITH MY HEART AND THAT IS SUNG WITHIN ME IS LIKE IT IS ETERNAL, THOUGH THE SONGS LAST ONLY A FEW MINUTES IN REALITY. JESUS IS THE THING THAT CONNECTS US IN GOD. TO CONCLUDE THIS PARAGRAPH, THE LORD IS GOOD. DONT STOP TRUSTING. HES WITH YOU EVERY MOMENT, TRIUMPH, AND TRAGEDY. NEVER IS HE AWAY FROM YOU LIKE HOW HE PROMISED HES NEVER GONE IN DEUT 31:6. WHERE I AM NOW IN HIS JOY WAS BY NO MEANS AN EASY ROAD, AND OFTEN IN IT, WE FALL INTO LEGALISM WHICH IS THE BELIEF THAT OUR WORKS SAVE US IN THE SENSE THAT WE EITHER ARE SOMEWHAT SAVED BY WORKS, OR WE ARE BLINDED BY RELYING ON OUR WORKS RATHER THAN GRACE. LEGALISM IS FROM SATAN BECAUSE ITS A LIE, WHICH CLAIMS THAT GODS GRACE ISNT FULLY SUFFICIENT FOR US, BUT RATHER THAT WE NEED WORKS TO BE SAVED. (LEGALISM AS IN THEOLOGY TERMS) PICTURE THIS: GOD IS COOKING UP THE GREATEST MEAL FOR YOU RIGHT NOW. YOU ON THE OTHER HAND, ARE STARVING. YOU ARE STARVING AND IN PAIN NOW, BUT THE JOY THAT COMES WITH EATING THE GREATEST MEAL IS ALL WORTH IT! SO BE PATIENT AND DECLINE THE FOOD OF THE WORLD, WHICH ONLY MAKES YOU UNHEALTHIER (I MEAN LIKE CHIPS) I AM NOT BEING LITERAL, BUT THE CHIPS (IN THIS CASE) THE WORLD OFFERS ONLY MAKES US UNHEALTHIER AND ADDICTED. SURE, THE MEAL GOD IS MAKING IS TAKING TIME SOMETIMES, BUT HE IS PUTTING EFFORT IN IT, THAT EVERY SECOND OF YOUR STARVATION IS WORTH IT. TRUST GOD, IT REALLY IS WORTH IT. I CAN TESTIFY FOR THAT. WE SERVE A GREAT GOD. KEEP FAST IN THE FAITH, STAND FIRM IN IT, AND BE CLOSE IN GOD IN HEART. YOU MAY NOT UNDERSTAND THE PURPOSE NOW, BUT HIS WAYS ARENT OURS. HIS WAYS TO US ARE INCOMPREHENSIBLE. SO YOU WONT UNDERSTAND IT, BUT PROVERBS 3:5-6 TELLS US TO RELY ON HIM WITH ALL OUR HEART. BECAUSE OUR GOD IS GRACEFUL, HIS YOKE EASY, JOY, ALWAYS WITHIN US, AND MORE THAT COULD NEVER BE COUNTED OR NAMED. THE GOODNESS AND PERFECTION AND HOLINESS OF GOD CANNOT BE DESCRIBED IN ANY WORD BUT HOLY, NO OTHER WORD OR AMOUNT OF THEM CAN FULLY DESCRIBE HIM. WORDS AND OUR MINDS ARE LIMITING, BUT HE ISNT. SINCE THE BEGINNING GOD ALREADY KNEW EVERY MOMENT, COVENANT, AND WHAT HAD TO BE DONE FOR THE PRICE OF OUR SINS, BECAUSE TIME, AND EVERY OTHER THING THAT LIMITS US THAT IS FAR FAR BEYOND OUR COMPREHENSION CANNOT LIMIT GOD EITHER. GOD IS LIMITLESS, SO HOW MUCH MORE IS HE HELPING YOU IN YOUR SITUATION? STAND FIRM IN YOUR FAITH, AND DONT EAT THE CHIPS OF THE WORLD. IT IS SURELT DEATH THOUGH SATAN MAKES IT LOOK LIKE LIFE. GOD IS SUCH A GREAT GOD. GODBLESS 🔥✝️🎉