Hi guys , This is long but it would be nice if you could read it.
Please, you guys should support me. Im living such a hard life. I'm emotionally broken for years. I've prayed for God to free me, and I dont want to lose hope. My dad just called and scolded me he isnt around most times cause of work. he's usually absent he said that im not good at my academics but its weird because others said I do really well he isnt just satisfied he compares me to my older sister and other people who are "better" than me he says I never read and im always on my phone wll I can't deny that cause my parents dont let me go out im always inside the house and both parents are just absent so I use my phone as a substitute although ive been trying to change that for God. right now my mum sister and brother are away to support my sister who is studying abroad (im not good enough to go abroad according to my dad) so im here with my other yonger brother 14 years of age. He is also a very tough one he is so rude and harsh towards me he says stuff like as if im 3 years younger rather than older. If he does the wrong, my dad will shout at me and blame me for his behaviour. Staying with the two of them together is hell or with either for 6 YEARS!! Im so tired. When will it end? I hate the uni im going to. i hate how my dad controls my life. I hate that he can't be a father, and my brother can't just be normal. My mum is close to God, but she gets frustrated by my dad, but she believes love is the only way, so she doesn't do anything much about the whole situation . My elder sister understands she says she's happy to be away and that's she feels sorry for me . My other younger brother ( my brother twin) he's autistic so I doubt he understands what even goes on . My family is so broken, yet we all pretend we are OK to the public . im here suffering like I dog I cook clean do the laundry while my brother and dad enjoys . Why can't I just have a normal life like my mates? Im so tired. I want to be free. Please God ive been begging in like forever when will I be free . Sorry if any mistakes its late in the night and im crying