I’m not really sure what my issue is, I’ve struggled with depression my entire life. My childhood was rocky to say the least. I struggled with drug addiction (sober 6 years thank God for that). But I just feel like a complete failure to my wife and child. We have another one coming. And I’m tired of always feeling like this. And it’s affecting every facet of my life. I never feel like I can talk to anyone. I’m a youth leader and and worship leader. I feel like I always have to be perfect and happy. Nothing can ever be wrong. I’m struggling so bad I feel so far away from the Lord I need him permanently and desperately. Please help me pray.