Hello everyone, I hope this not too long for some of you I hope you’ll all see this and take a moment to read a part of my testimony that I will keep discreet. I truly pray that God speaks through what I’m about to share. I want to open up about my personal journey with the Lord, and I hope some of you can relate. Today, I’m asking for prayer—specifically, for restoration in my situation. I’m also asking for the strength to walk by faith, not by sight. I’m praying for the Lord to come through for me—even if not today, I believe He will come through very, very soon. Lately, I’ve been struggling… a lot. But recently, I made the decision to surrender—really surrender—to the Lord. I realized that I hadn’t fully surrendered before. Not when it came to my sin. Not when it came to trusting God over what things looked like on the outside. I was reacting to what I saw, instead of walking in faith. And I know I’m not the only one. So if you're going through something similar, I’m praying for you too. And I want to share something I’ve discovered in the midst of all this, something that may help you see your situation differently. God gave me something I had prayed for. But let me be honest—it hasn’t been smooth sailing. It still isn’t. I knew it was from him from but I struggled with faith and only looked to what it looked like and allowed my fear and loneliness to take over. For people who wonders if what they prayed for is from God If it’s from God, and it’s part of His will for your life, it will be beautiful—but it won’t be easy. There will be complications. There will be pain. Suffering. Tears. Agony. It will look like what you prayed for is falling apart. But God allows that. He allows it to grow our faith. To strip us from sinful comforts. To change us into the person we need to be. To remind us that the blessing He gave us is not meant to be held without Him—He must stay at the center. Before He allows whatever you prayed to fully come to pass, He’ll strengthen you. He’ll shape you. He’ll test you. And yes—you’ll fail. Many times. You’ll shed tears. You’ll wonder why. You’ll fall short again and again. But what matters most—is that you keep turning back to Him. Keep praying. Keep seeking Him. Even if you have to admit, “Lord, I don’t know if I fully trust You right now.” That honesty matters to Him. He already knows what you’re thinking. He knows your fears, your doubts, your sin. And you can’t hide any of it from Him. After 50 weeks of trials… After falling short again and again… I’ve failed. A million times. I ignored His voice. I gave into sin for moments of pleasure. I did things I regret—things I know God saw. I was like that dog returning to its vomit, just like Proverbs says. And I truly believed I had delayed the very thing I had prayed for. I really thought I've thrown everything away and that i was too far gone But here’s the truth—I’m still here. And more importantly, God is still here. He hasn’t abandoned me. He keeps lifting me up. He keeps telling me to try again. He keeps washing me clean. And He keeps reminding me—I’m not disqualified. Only He has the final say. I took time to reflect again. And I see now—I’m not the same person I was a year and a half ago. I’ve changed. And God sees my heart. He sees that I want to let go of what’s holding me back. That I want to move forward into what He promised. So to everyone fighting a silent battle… please, don’t give up. Keep going to Him. Keep praying—even if it feels like nothing is changing. If you’re thinking of giving up—don’t. Satan is cheering for that. But God is cheering for you. And if you need proof—use me I’ve been on the edge. I’ve almost given up many times. But every single time—God came through. He gave me peace. He gave me hope. And I promise—if you hold on, we'll see God come through. And when He does, what He promised will come to pass—and what we prayed for will begin to make sense in His perfect timing. and He will restore what was lost—often giving more than we could ever ask or imagine. He will ignite our faith further that burns like fire, melting every chain of bondage—and no chain will ever hold you again—unless you choose to return to it. But even then, His mercy will be ready to pull you out again. And we will look back and be grateful for the journey of tribulation and to God for being with us along the way growing us and lifting us up every time we fall into temptation. We will become the person we needed to be for what we prayed for Don’t be afraid to surrender everything to Him. If you do, He will take care of you—and everything and everyone you love. God bless you all.