The Lord has made Himself real to me. I am forgiven, I am redeemed, I’m not forgotten. Oh Lord Jesus! For many years, I prayed that the Lord would give me a heart to love Him more and begged Him to look at me in my wretched state. However, my prayers were only with my mouth while my heart remained hard. Despite my pleas over the years, I would immediately turn to sin each time. I believed He had abandoned me and that I was doomed to darkness. But three days ago, I came before Him and asked for forgiveness. Praise God for allowing me to feel His presence again. I was filled with the Holy Spirit. I didn't realize that every bone in my body had been in shackles for many years until I felt those shackles released, and an electric surge coursed through every single nerve of my body. All these years, I was in darkness, and now I am redeemed. I don't want this feeling to go away. Please pray that I no longer turn to sin.